It's raining heavy here today from what I can see from my Hospital window. I received a bit of a blow as far as information goes. The doctors here want to hold me at least until next Tuesday. This means that I will be removed from my academic program, and inevitably exported back to the states. I feel a bit numb, and unsure what to think, and haven't been on the up and up all day. My Hospital chic didn't do it for me today, nor did my regular scallion broth, not even The Simpsons(in Spanish) I want to cry and curl up into a ball, but in the name of national image, I'll hold it together. I feel like this has been a defeat. No Paris. No grades. No more Europe, it might have been my only chance in life, and it was amazing--no regrets--now I am worried more about my graduation, and just getting caught up. It's enough to give one abdominal pain. My next life motto may have to be, "WEAR THE CLOTHES YOU HAVE WELL, SAVOR THE FOOD YOU'VE BEEN GIVEN, THE MORE OBSTACLES THE SWEETER THE GOAL, PACK A RAIN COAT." I will try to blog again soon, but friend who is letting me use his computer is going back to the States tomorrow or Saturday.